A little rambling of a heavy heart

No pictures tonight.  I prefer to always have photos in my posts, but I just have so much on my mind tonight.  Today we had another photoshoot for the Heart Gallery.  This always leaves me so heavy-hearted when I leave.  Heavy as in that is all that my brain can think about the whole rest of the day...  and several more days to come.  Each and every child that I meet.  I think that is a good thing though...(everyone around me that has to listen to me go on, and on may not say so :)  These children deserve to be stuck on someone's mind, my mind, so I will continue to help, continue to pray, continue to spread the word about these children that need families.   Having them on my heart is what makes me want to keep on, keeping on.  Such beautiful children, that have been through such a hard life, by no fault of their own.  It bogs my brain down with how evil this world is.  There is always a few new ones that I meet that just really grab me.  Today it was a boy the same age as my oldest son...I was ready to just bring him home to be my son.  And then I realized he had an older brother...that he was SO excited to see.  My heart broke even more as another foster mom was telling me that she heard them talking about how much they want to be adopted together.  I PRAY for them that this will happen soon.  There were 3 more that really got to me today.  One boy I met at my very first photo shoot in 2007.  He was still pretty young then, and so delightful.  Today, he was just as delightful, and had grown into a handsome new teenager.  Still just as sweet and polite.  Breaks...my....heart.  Where is his forever family?  Lord, please, please give this boy his forever family. 

My children are all staying at grandparents for the weekend.  I love how much they love going to see them.  The babies too.  As Z was getting out of the car at my mother-in-laws, he was jumping through the car saying "need a hug, need a hug, need a hug!"  And then just flew out of the car, jumping into her arms.  It was priceless!!  I love, that while I am at home getting a relaxing break, my children are having more fun with their grandparents than they would be having if they were at home...haha.  I love that they have so many people that love them as much as we do. 

I did get some good news today.  Our sweet baby T, our baby that we fostered that has a lot of special needs.....has found his forever family!  I got so choked up when his adoption specialist told me that today.  I love him so much, and that has been my prayer.  And, here is the way that God is so Awesome....  You see, I have carried SO much guilt b/c I was the one who said I couldn't take care of him anymore.   I gave up...and b/c I gave up, he has been living in a nursing home.  I was so scared he would have to always live there, and that tore me up.  And guess what....the mom that is adopting him....worked there where he lives.  That is how she found him.  Once things are worked out, she will be able to take him home so he can live in a home, with a family, and she knows how to care for him.  God's timing....I give him all the Glory.